Betrayed..

In all of my thirty something years, I have never really felt so stabbed, so wounded like I really do feel now. Yes, I have heard stories of how people have been betrayed, watched movies of how strong bonds have been broken with absolute recklessness and disregard and read tales of wolves in sheep’s clothing--but that was until now.

I’m in a quandary. I don’t understand why people have always taken my niceties for granted. It hurts to the marrow that I go to all ends to make another happy but each time; all I get is a stab from the very hands of the ones I have spent my whole time and resources on.
I trusted him. Called him my brother from another mother, ate from the same plate and fooled around together. I thought he was there for me genuinely when my heart was broken. I thought all his words and admonitions were real. Alas!

I wore my whole heart on my sleeves for him and could have sworn behind his back that he would never think anything untoward towards me let alone act his script out boldly as he has done.

I told him personal and intimate stuffs about me that I wouldn’t dare share with anyone. I believed in him..but what did he do? He scorned me..He scorned me with his actions. He stabbed me in the back and said vile words against me, nay opened me up for ridicule…

The heart of man is evil, full of treachery and deceit. If only I’d seen through that smile..If only I’d read through every action and when I did and cried foul, no one..I mean no one listened to me. I saw danger lurking in the shadows and raised the red flag but no one heeded my call .. If only I’d seen into the future..if only I’d listened to the words of the Psalmist which admonishes me never to trust any man..if only..

These are times when you wish God will stand up really fast and soon too, to strike your enemies down in fury and vengeance but im constantly reminded of the words of the Holy Bible that says his ways are not our ways.. Now I look back on everything you ever told me and realize without a shadow of doubt that they were all self serving. I should have known..I should have known you were a traitor..I should have known that I needed a long spoon to sup with you but I stupidly let all my guards down never knowing you had your game plan. I have always been a strong believer in the law of Karma and I know it’s certainly coming for you pretty soon so that the world will know you for who you are …