In your eyes...

My gold …My jewel
The beauty of you
And the freshness of your body
Keeps me wanting
The aura of you
Keeps me wondering
Leaving me with shortness
Of breath…
Your smile
Lights up my world
Your soul,
A beauty to reckon with
Swirling my heart
Day by day
Every moon lit night
I’m here wishing…
Leaving me thinking
Of a moment in your arms…

THE SERENITY PRAYER

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

You dont ever appreciate what you got til its gone.It's a hard lesson of life that we all face at some point hoping that we can all learn from our shortcomings..Enjoy Janet Jackson in one of her all time classics...

DREAMS

Dreams are like candles
Burning out so fast
When left unprotected
The elation, the excitement
All comes to noughts
Like a moment in time
As a fire brimming with flames
All the passion is consumed
Breeding hate and pain
Like gloom on a sullen face
Leaving sorrow in its trail

I love you Mama

There's no word to describe this feeling
There's no match for the thoughts in me
Yet all i can do is wish and imagine
Because your so far away.

I miss you, Mother
No one could ever compare to you
Your love to me is indeed golden
Your affection and care, eternal

I wish i could hold the clock
From ticking away so fast
I wish you were here with me
Right beside me everyday

Everyday i think about you
Your undisputed love and attention
Too many people have tried being you
But they can only try

You will never know how much
How much i long to see you soon
Only time i have to wait upon
Before I'm right by your side soon

I love you Mama

My heart cries out...

I'm so over shadowed with this feeling
This gut feeling of indecision
All road seems wide open and vague
waiting for me to choose which to walk in

People come with their different thoughts
Opinions that don't really count always
They think they know best how to rule you

Saddled with responsibilities everyday
Armed with hope and confronted with fears
Lost in the middle of the road
I'm crying out of my soul for a way out

Where's thy face Oh Lord!
Hide not thy face from your humble servant
My heart groans and mourns for a way out
I have no one but you to bail me out
For my bones are weak and weary.

I need you Lord, i want you more and more
Take me out of this tempest valley
And lead me through the way

I have tried using my wisdom
I have ignored you for too long
and have always had my problems crashing over me

Lord i come to you today
Come fill me with your holiness
Come fill me with your righteousness
And lead me through the long walk

I cant do it no more, I'm crying out
I need you Lord..Help me, help me

This indecision, one too many, cant do it alone
Want you to take my hands in yours and lead me on
I desire you in this wilderness

Show me to whom you've sent to me
Show me the bones which you created out of me
Show me the life you want me to lead and
Crown all with your living spirit within me

Your all i want.Teach me Lord
How not to go astray
Till my eyes catch a glimpse of you
And my heart is filled with your holiness

~~~ W I N G L E S S ~~~

Just leave me your stardust to remember you by...


Who cares what i think,
who cares what i feel
when all they do is treat me with sceptism
I have tried to maintain my sanity
but daily its threatened
I have tried to make them happy
but what do i get?
I do all i have to do,
bend over backwards always
All in a bid to appease
.. and soothe frayed nerves
My pillow soaks daily from my crying out
I'm daily running out of ideas on what to do
How best to placate everyone around me

I'm not a bad person.
Never has been
So pray, where did things go wrong
How am i gonna make them believe in me
when they probably see me as a threat
Its the first time in my life ever
That am faced with this kind of indecision
The pain and tears that wells up in me daily

Cant you see the tears in my eyes
Don't you worry what about what i feel
Don't you feel i must be sad?
You ask why i have been withdrawn
when all i get is disdain and contempt
From the very people who promised love and succor
Am amazed you feel so happy
Thinking in your wildest dreams that i am too

You need have a rethink about life
Think about the time you wouldn't be here
About the things that would be said about you
Yes, you have tried your best is what i hear you say
But have you thought what impact its had on me
Have you thought that food and clothes mean little to me
Love care and affection means the world to me
And thats what i crave from you

I crave love and not hate
I crave affection and support
Do not despise and contempt me
I'm me.I cant change who i am
I've tried to please everyone around me
Make them happy in my own way
Sometimes at my own peril
But its all naughts almost all of the time

Its sad, i know.
Wish i could change this feelings
But every night its there sticking out
One minute, You make me happy and joyous
And the next minute, you make me lose my cool
How come? how have you had so much power over me
Just in one fell swoop, to make me happy
And in another, make me hate the world

How come...
You cant see those lines across my face
You cant see my wry smile
You cant see how much I'm all by myself
Because you chose to ignore
What I'm feeling down within me

Just want you to remember this
Its only one life to live
To create and make a world of difference
If you love me, prove it beyond words
Beyond every other thing you give
Prove it with your love and affection
And all the smiles will come back

For now, I lay my cross on Jesus
He's the only one who cares and sees
The pain and tears in my life
Take me out Oh Lord and let me be
That man you created me to be